Attention: I Have Not Dissapeared

*Pfewf* What was that? Oh, just the sound of the inch-thick layer of dust covering this here blog being swept away. *Hack*. Pardon me. 

Now where was I? 

OH! Waxing philosophical about experiencing some semblance of balance between my life as a patient, and my life as, well, me. Thankfully, I bounced back yet again shortly after finishing that early-fall round of IV's, and have done pretty well since, health-wise. I've had a few viruses here and there that have knocked me back a bit, but none so badly that I've had to call in the big guns. 

Oh, but I did kindasortamaybe drop out of grad school. 

I won't go in to all the gory details here, partly because I'm very, very tired of repeating and rehashing them, partly because it's still pretty fresh and I don't have everything wrapped up in a nice, neat, prioritized and chronological narrative package yet (which I'm sure is part of the reason it's so exhausting to explain), and partly because I don't want all my bizznass all over the internets about this quite yet. 

Suffice it to say that *many* life lessons were learned, I don't regret the experience, and I'm not alltogetheronehundredpercentoveranddone with academia; I might be, and that's totally fine too, but I'm not walking away and tossing a match over my shoulder, either. 

So. All the crazy, mystical, really-not-that-interesting reasons I ended up leaving are a large part of why I also haven't been blogging, but not entirely. I didn't realize until I was doing pretty well, and pretty consistently, health-wise, that I didn't quite know what to do with my blog when I wasn't sick, or getting better, or otherwise identified and preoccupied with my health. It's supposed to be a blog about my health, right? So what do I write about when I'm doing well? I was afraid of alienating people if I strayed too far from the "CF" path, and was afraid of misrepresenting CF writ large somehow. 

But the bottom line is that sick, healthy, or somewhere in between, I miss writing. I miss writing for an audience (even if it's only imagined). And thankfully, there are enough CF voices out there, blogging about anything and everything besides and including CF, that if, for some reason, someone decides they're tired of mine, they can find information and insight and crazy stories elsewhere And so I'll be blogging - sometimes about my health, when warranted; sometimes about other life things that are completely unrelated, and sometimes about the intersection of the two. 

I'll also be looking for a job! So if you have any leads or info regarding pharmaceutical or surgical sales openings in either of the Carolinas, or medical, pharmaceutical or surgical research positions, by all means, let me know! 

For now, I'm going to go whip up some banana bread and chug lemonade like it's my job in hopes of flushing out or otherwise dislodging my current freak-of-the-week ailment, le kidney stone. But the story is so....normal, that it's barely worth recounting. Perhaps tomorrow?

Sleep tight, bloggy friends!